Friday, March 16, 2007


I have had a lot on my mind lately which is why I have been remiss in my blogging. I am still depressed. I have not seen Skeptic since the lost condom incident. He actually blew me off completely when I invited him over for a home cooked meal and a blow job. Sexual Chocolate wanted to go clubbing last weekend, and I told him I was broke and wanted to do something a bit more low key. He urged me on by pointing out I could work the boys for free drinks to which I replied I couldn't give away free food and pussy so I was not optimistic about my ability to pull free drinks. Not good for the ego. San Fran was in on my birthday last Monday. Another night at the Beverly Hilton...fancy. I got more pleasure from the hotel room and the amenities than San Fran. Grossly unsatisfying. Haven't heard from him since. I think we are both seeing the writing on the wall regarding our hook up; besides sex and alcohol we really don't have much in common. He did say he would come down in the next couple of weeks, but honestly, seems like more trouble than it is worth. What I need is a little preDICKtability in my life. I want the standing Saturday night date. I want the cuddle up on the sofa guy. I want the Sunday newspaper and breakfast with the Beatles guy. I want to be wanted! The plan for the weekend is to hit HARD and really work my funnel. I need to get out of this funk and perhaps the best way to do so is by a few weeks of frenetic dating. Should be a source of amusement for the Filthy and Gorgeous posse. Stay know it is about to get good.


sc said...

Hey, if he's turning you down, then he's obviously dumb, blind, or considering going gay. Either way, he's an idiot.

LA Woman said...

thanks friend. I know you have exquisite taste in women and that makes me feel much better. starts to grind on your self esteem when you can't give it away.

senorsmooth said...

Never think of it as reflection on you sweetie if an offer is turned down; us guys never do (if we did we'd have no ego left). He has his reasons I'm sure. Remember though that desperation is ALWAYS a turn-off. Take your time. Enjoy the process of dating and don't get too emotionally caught up in the results. As my grandad used to say, "You can mount that prize bass on the wall when you catch it, but till then don't sweat it that you're just sitting in a boat with a stick in your hand. Enjoy the day."