Friday, March 16, 2007
I have had a lot on my mind lately which is why I have been remiss in my blogging. I am still depressed. I have not seen Skeptic since the lost condom incident. He actually blew me off completely when I invited him over for a home cooked meal and a blow job. Sexual Chocolate wanted to go clubbing last weekend, and I told him I was broke and wanted to do something a bit more low key. He urged me on by pointing out I could work the boys for free drinks to which I replied I couldn't give away free food and pussy so I was not optimistic about my ability to pull free drinks. Not good for the ego. San Fran was in on my birthday last Monday. Another night at the Beverly Hilton...fancy. I got more pleasure from the hotel room and the amenities than San Fran. Grossly unsatisfying. Haven't heard from him since. I think we are both seeing the writing on the wall regarding our hook up; besides sex and alcohol we really don't have much in common. He did say he would come down in the next couple of weeks, but honestly, seems like more trouble than it is worth. What I need is a little preDICKtability in my life. I want the standing Saturday night date. I want the cuddle up on the sofa guy. I want the Sunday newspaper and breakfast with the Beatles guy. I want to be wanted! The plan for the weekend is to hit Match.com HARD and really work my funnel. I need to get out of this funk and perhaps the best way to do so is by a few weeks of frenetic dating. Should be a source of amusement for the Filthy and Gorgeous posse. Stay tuned......you know it is about to get good.