Thursday, August 20, 2009

Facing My Fears.....Fueled By Beers


One of my friends noted that I seem to put myself in bizarre situations constantly. Last weekend, I finally agreed to go with my new girl crush SurfGirl and learn to surf. I also told Mellow I am going to take the plunge and learn to dive. Tonight, I am having dinner with a couple that does extreme BDSM porn. Saturday, 3some...this time with another girl. In the light of day, it is apparent to me that I am a big chicken and this was alcohol talking. Will I go through with it? Absofuckinglutely! My 3rd grade SpellingPartner (and best friend up until a blow out fight about 7 years ago...) used to be the more adventurous of the two us. She went lesbo for a while, then was part of a Poly relationship, dated tons of different ethnicities.....now, she is married to a Jewish doctor, two kids and living in the suburbs. She is a housewife. When telling her about my opportunities I was surprised by the verve with which she said, "DO IT!!!! Do it while you still can! We aren't getting any younger and take every opportunity that comes your way!!!" As lonely as my life can be from time to time, at least I can still have experiences that most only fantasize about. While I continue on my quest for Mr. Right, I need to remember what a blessing total freedom can be and not waste it. I should be taking my writing classes, climbing mountains, interacting with all kinds of diverse people. I may be a chicken, but I am a free range one! Some may say DEranged....

1 comment:

Célimène said...

haha embrace the "deranged" label! I get the same thing from my friends - they always ask how it is that I consistently walk into the most bizarre experiences, and still manage to gasp at my own stories. It's for the thrill! I think facing your fears is an excellent way to live life - and personally, I'm kind of jealous of you. Looks like I've got some catching up to do!